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| Sunday, April 9, 2006 |
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time really flies huh.
three weeks ago,
we were sitting at tcc, racking our brains thinking of what gimmicks to give,what videos and blah.
soon huat thinking SILENTLY, but miraculously, nothing coming out of the process and yong zhi stoning.
two weeks ago,
we were filiming our video.
that originally high-budget video which almost involved huge milo trucks, big fans and sawing off the lights. haha.
and stupidly wasting $7.90 on that hairspray when we could just use powder. rahh.
one week ago,
we showed our video to everyone.
how siyun blurted "vote for hwachong! vote for apollo!"
how spastic i looked in the video,
how everyone cheered for us at the end.
i'll never forget.
now, the results are out.
and only the two of us made it in.
but strangely, at that time, there wasn't a single tinge of happiness.
all i felt was a sense of loss.
i want us to get in together.
to scream and hug together.
this aint the results i want.
sitting with all the other elecs listening to the councillors, at that time wasn't exactly the easiest thing to do.
because i just felt lost. and fear was accumulating every minute.
and it hasn't gone away.
im worried about being the only councillor in class.
you know how muddle headed i can be sometimes. there's gonna be so much things to remember and do, but noone to share with, noone to remember with, noone to do with.
and what if. if i drift away from the class. i mean, during the elections, i was doing everything with potholes. can't remember how many class lunches i missed. i could feel it.
but at least i still has siyun. i still had a support.
there's this really awful feeling somewhere i can't explain.
and i dont know why either.
i know i ought to get to rid of it. because its just riduculous wallowing in such self pity.
but just tell me how.
to soonhuat, drunkard, siyun and wengchi!
thanks for everything. for being such wonderful team mates to run election with.
for all the crazy, stoney, tired, bimbotic,NURSE-y moments you've given me.
i really could never have made it without you guys!
- BIG HUGG :)))))))))))))))) |
and so she said at 4:26 PM  |
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